Friday, January 27, 2012

Put to the Test Already

Pin It Now! Already being tested to BELIEVE.

I wrote about this special word a couple of weeks ago.  Had no idea I'd be tested so soon!

Due to circumstances beyond our control, we will have to move out of our home soon. It's not a complete surprise. We'd known it was potentially a possibility, but I'd pretty much put it out of my mind. I figured everything would get worked out. Not so much. At least not the way I'd hoped.

Initially when I received the news, I was a little upset and even shed a few tears. I need time to process any kind of change and tears are just a sign that I am processing. They don't necessarily mean that I think my world is falling apart. But I did have to muddle through the stinkin' thinkin' this-isn't-where-I-thought-I'd-be-at-35 thoughts. The thoughts of having to leave the familiarity; not being able to pick my apples in June, pomegranates in the fall, and oranges in the winter; wondering if there will be scorpions in the new place; and silly things like that clouded my judgement. I knew I just needed some time alone with God, time to refresh my mind, and time to get my perspective straightened out.

The next morning, I really did feel better. I even had to laugh at myself for feeling sad about having to leave this home. When my husband first bought it 5 years ago, (I couldn't be with him at the time) I was so disappointed when I first saw it. It didn't have any of the "extras" I had wanted, didn't have 4 bedrooms which was kind of important to me, and worst of all, it had one of those 1/2 walls upstairs. I totally flipped over that. I just knew my 3 little kids were going to somehow fall over the edge to their deaths onto our tiled first floor! (Of course that never happened, thank goodness.)

Thing is, I might not be very good at embracing change, but I am kind of good at dealing with a situation and making the best of it when I am forced to. I grew to like my home. I made it mine. The neighborhood is pretty decent. My kids have made some friends here. I LOVE my fruit trees we planted and the little garden my hubby built for me, I like that we don't have scorpions in this little corner of the desert, and I super duper love the familiarity! Have I mentioned that I don't like change much?

I am so funny. I cried when I moved in and I cried when I found out we'd have to move out! What is wrong with me?!

I do realize, though, that this is such a small trial. It could be way worse. And if God has already gotten us through a job loss and 2 very hard years of recovering from it, won't He get us through this, too? I am so thankful for the friends and family in my life who are giving us so much support already. We have an amazing and trustworthy realtor. We are so blessed. :)

So again, I will write that I am believing

  • that all things are possible with God
  • that I can do all things through Him
  • that He will direct my paths
  • that He will do amazing things in my life despite my weaknesses, lack of finances, etc.
  • that He will bring about my hopes, dreams, and desires according to His will
  • that He has my life in His hands, and that He is trustworthy

  • I think my memory verse for this week is very much appropriate: "Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than we ask or imagine according to His power that is at work in us . . ."

                                                                                                                  ~ Ephesians 3:20

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